fly away

abba father

2008-08-26T09:38:00.000-07:00

Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;

does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;

does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;

bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never fails.

1Cor13:4-8

God, i trust in you. you will uphold all things.. you never fail.

heartbreak

2008-08-26T09:10:00.000-07:00

my heart broke as i saw the words..

God, what can i do?

God

2008-04-21T10:45:00.000-07:00

Isn't it totally narrow-minded to believe in one God?

Sure, it is, unless there happens to be one God.

If there are many gods, then, of course, it is totally narrow-minded to believe in just one. But, if there is only one God, it would be foolish to insist on more.

So, which is it: one God or many? That is the heart of the matter. And mankind has held differing opinions on the matter throughout time. For the sake of argument, let’s suppose either option is possible. Then, it is no more narrow-minded to assert a belief in one God than it is to assert a belief in many. The issue, however, isn’t whether one or the other is narrow-minded; the real issue is which one is true and worthy of your belief.

from www.godspeaks.com.

i think this is so true! (: go God. i love you.. you are real to me. you've always been.. just that now i see you. you're by my side, as you always have been.

prayer

2008-02-05T09:25:00.000-08:00

i need to pray like never before.

big stones in my life.

my walk with God, my family, my studies.

then my w319, my NUSunited, my arts club.

more of You, and less of me.

i need Your grace (:

interesting

2007-11-23T04:55:00.000-08:00

i just read a blog of a friend's. mmm. nice. has been long since i met someone who writes this well. (:

im just being random.

today cg was early.

i got a great job offer! $12 an hour at kovan. convenient, work little hours and earn alot of money. hoho. thanks so much, God!!

planning to watch Enchanted with the mummy on sunday.

i have an econs exam tmr. AHHHH.

*takes a deep breath*

gotta jiayou man, jing.

i can do this.

i live to shine for You. (:

cry

2007-11-10T10:44:00.000-08:00

there were about 3 moments when i felt like doing something today.

1. when i was watching the arise & build video, and i saw the orphanages in sri lanka and the schools in china. really very touched by their gratitude and how blessed they are.. at the same time touched by the sacrifice to make it possible.

2. when i saw an old friend coming back to God again. i had so much to say.. but i just dont know what to say. i wanted to say it was amazing just to stand together in the same space, in this expo hall 8 again. i missed you so much. fellowshipping together, eating together. about 4 years? almost 5 years now. oh, and i dreamt of you twice.. and it came to pass. i knew you would.. welcome home, my dear brother.

3. when i saw the bitterness and hatred of someone i love very much. sigh.

how, God. how?

'I wait for the Lord, my soul waits
And in His Word I do hope. '
Psalms130:5

because of you, God.. i have hope. i can hope. things will get better. they always do.. like what You did for me a million times. i love You, always. (:

fly away.

2007-11-05T08:32:00.000-08:00

'And I said, "Oh, that I had wings
like a dove!
For then I would fly away and be at
rest'

Psalms 55:6

i named this blog fly away because many times, thats what i really want to do. of course.. what with the hopeless romantic me with my pre-concieved notions, it seems like a beautiful thing to do. to fly away into the open sky. without the heavy burdens that weigh me down so sometimes. maybe blogging allows me to write down and in a way, deposit these heavy burdens. or perhaps i just need a way to "see" my thoughts. im a visual person, i think.

anyway, im sad today. :(

just had the most saddening conversation with a.. ex-friend of mine, i guess i have to call her that now. im now the "hypocrite" that "makes [her] puke]. sigh. what happened to the days of going home together, shopping together, taking pictures on our phones together and setting them as both our wallpapers, praying together, having bible study, even just enjoying each other's company. does that all mean nothing? have my care for you been erased by a simple misunderstanding? if only you would listen to my explanation.. if only you would forgive me.. if only you would let me make it up to you. i am so sorry i let you down, so sorry i let everything perpetuate.

i guess this will only be the first.. and definitely not the last. it is possible to love a person with all your heart, to sow into a person's life, to give so much yet... not have reciprocation. its maddeningly unbelievable but true. what can i do? i still ask myself what can i do for her? everything i do or say is rejected. im so worried for her but there's nothing i can do but pray... God, will she hear me one day? God, keep her safe.. let her be happy. heal her hurts, and help her move on. Lord, let her not leave church, but find comfort in Your presence. let your love keep her and protect her. always. in Jesus' name, amen.

haha. im so whiny. but its okay right, God? (:

i love God.

2007-10-18T08:21:00.000-07:00

this is glendon chow. really really cute boy. my beloved cellgroup member. (: im sorry glendon you look like a mini me of Loan Shark Beng, but you probably wont get to see this hehe and its my latest picture so i just had to commerated this time of my life by blogging a picture. (:

yay im posting again. just a random visit made me feel like blogging.

so silly and funny to read through my previous posts.

recently heard of this young couple who set up a blog for their unborn baby. they put up ultrasound pictures, and posts things like 'mummy and daddy loves you, and cant wait for you to grow.' hahaha. so amazingly sweet! it will be the sweetest thing to grow up and one day read this blog your parents devoted to you. and it also signifies one thing: we have truly entered the technological age. who uses diaries anymore?! haha. pen & paper will soon be obselete. even im perpetually on my laptop (if only it was lighter i would bring it everywhere)

speaking of which, i think im seriously building arm muscles from just carrying my laptop+charger+books+the rest of my life with me. i dont know why but im always lugging alot of things around. so TIRING. hah. but God is good... ive been so blessed. i lost my textbook and someone returned it to me, i could always get a seat on the train when im carrying heavy things, and either my mum or someone has been sending me home everyday. yay.

i love God.. i love His people. i love serving Him.. and i love living this life hand in hand with Him. (:

my new lappie

2007-09-16T18:36:00.001-07:00

yay im just loving my new lappie. its so fun to type on it! woohoo. :D

arghh

2007-06-30T10:55:00.000-07:00

to say im angry is understated.

ARGH.

im flipping mad!

my ipod has mysteriously crashed. its not responding. its perpetually in OFF mode!!!!!!!!!!

ok.

breathe.

its okay.

just buy a new ipod, lor.

and send this one if there is still hope, for repair.

sigh.

blogging is good

2007-06-29T12:53:00.000-07:00

i was just praying and thought i really want to pen this down somewhere. or blog, in this case.

i really really really enjoy watching dramas. korean taiwanese american. any type of chick flick. book form can do also. its just... a girl thing. something you know, i figure i really shouldnt be too obsessed over. like its some kind of sin. i mean of course balance is the key to life and obsessing about anything is just quite gross... seriously. but i always thought that i was doing something wrong when i begin to indulge in my own little romantic lala land. like God doesnt like kids who watch/read too much chick flicks and become unrealistic.

so i was feeling rather guilty.. my holidays have just started and thats exactly what ive been doing! so.. i sheepishly confessed to God... and i asked God is it wrong? i mean, im feeling so guilty and all. and i felt God began to speak to me. that its okay. its really okay. He has blessed me with a imagination. to dwell on all things good and all things wonderful.

hey, im still sane. sane with a freedom to imagine, to create, to enjoy, to believe in love.

'Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers.' 3John1:2

(:

no excuse

2007-06-28T10:37:00.000-07:00

i was just thinking now that im FREE (yay), i should really become a regular of my own blog.

so today. i had a lovely sleep in. since the crazy construction next to my house (some elaborate estate in the making) has stopped, the tremors threatening to collapse my house and devour my sanity has ceased. yessssssss. peace at last.

i used to wake up at an unearthly 9am by this lovely construction alarm clock and watch the things on my table vibrate like Jurassic Park. i cant even listen to my music or watch tv (ie my korean dramas) properly. in a desperate attempt to block out the noise, i run around closing every door and window and then drawing the curtains, only to end up with a really dark house and no ventilation. and it stills goes "BOOOM! *house vibrates* BOOOM! *house vibrates* this is the point where i throw my hands up in frustration and decide to ignore it (as much as i can).

but hey. back to the good news. it has ended! woohoo.

my sister was the one that woke me up today. after she came home from school. at 3pm. can you imagine?! she's already finished a good half of her day and here i am, snoring away. heh. the good old days of slacking is back! MUAHAHA.

but i guess this is like one of my last chances. i feel so old. after university, i'll be an official member of the working population. its so bizarre to look back and think of all the times the older generation used to tell me to cherish my time as a student and all i could respond was with a pinched face of disbelief and thinking "pfft! like these oldies can ever imagine the peer pressure, the stress, the problems we face!!" oh teenage angst.

not that i dont love being 19. its my favourite age to be at. *cue cheesy britney spears music: 'I'm not a girl, not yet a woman..'* HAHA. okay. yeah its like my last year as a teenager. and i like the number 9. and... i can still enjoy the privileges of sponging off my parents and at the same time be legal to club, drink, drive, m18 movies, etc etc. i'm coming of age, i guess. like a bildungsroman. haha ok not really! (my ex-lit teachers pls dont kill me for blatantly flouting the do-not-anyhow-use-literary-terms rule)

after being treated to the numerous random peices of my mind, back to my day. so after a brief encounter with my sis (she left the house shortly after for a dental appointment), i showered and had my late lunch (instant noodles). then i left my house to go for prayer meeting. it was good. though i really dont like hall 1. the spiritual atmosphere is terrible. *wrinkles nose* hall 8, i miss you!

prayer meeting ended at about 10pm. we were really hungry by the time we reached serangoon so we stopped by to buy supper. and thus, my day ended with some really yummy 'mel ma dian' bak chor mee.

(:

sob fest

2007-06-27T07:31:00.000-07:00

im knee deep, no, waist deep in a korean drama sob fest with my mum. well technically im quite distracted (or cynical) cos i know THE GIRL IS GOING TO DIE. its so depressing. all movies/shows should have happy endings! thats what entertainment is about, what. who pays to make oneself miserable? but. in comparison to singaporean/taiwanese dramas, the korean actors are really infinitely better. its actually quite convincing.. until the everyone-is-dying-or-crying plot sets in. the show's called 'The Snow Queen'.

its about this guy (very hot) who's very poor but a maths genius and becomes best friends with a rich genius in high school. then he wins this rich guy in this international olympiad thing and the rich guy couldnt take it and commits suicide. plauged by guilt he runs aways from home and lives a vagrant life for 8 years. then he meets this girl and realises she is the girl from his childhood AND the best friend's kid sister. so they are tormented by the brother's death until they decide to get together in the end despite parental objection. THEN she realises she's terribly ill and at this point on my tv screen, she has died.

here he is! he is such a good (and did i say gorgeous?) actor. okay enough of my useless rambling review of a korean drama. i wanna pick up more korean though. i would love to wander down the streets of korea and converse with the stall owners in fluent korean. and of course, the yummy yummy korean food.

sometimes, i really wonder if i live in lala land.

(:

yoohoo

2007-06-15T12:01:00.000-07:00

cupboard digging, amongst my many responsibilities.

the AMAZINGLY sweet present from the girls! do i seriously look like i like zhang dong liang so much?? but im really so touched by the effort to buy his 2nd cd. i couldnt even find it myself and you guys actually sourced it out and bought it first! thanks ronnie (:
this angie is very fierce, very small, and takes care of ME! im her baby (her words) and someone i can really trust. (: uncle edmond is a super nice guy who cracks super cold jokes and feeds me with occasional tidbits! gave me the sweetest present of all. a small pair of cross earrings carefully wrapped with a msg written behind.. when he could have shared with the rest. and told me secretively to 'go home then open.' (:
this ronnie ah! a really really nice fella who treats me to 20ct milo all the time (not like its alot). but drives me crazy when he is being out of point (most of the time) and is mad about jap stuff. he dresses like a overaged teen, but is actually just a great big softie at heart.

uncle cedric. renowned lady killer. also a married one. wifey (in his words) is working on same floor, next door dept. just LOVES to act cute and disturb small girls. but is nice. i love the uncles! they arent involved in the office politics. (: chee shung: my very very very very TALL mentor.
the last lunch at crystal jade (cos shirmie braces restricted her to expensive porridge)

the remorseful looks on naughty kids who are late back from lunch (due to a impulsive neoprint escapade)
my beloved table!
my rubber band holder santa (im currently facing charges of santa abuse)
ok. i didnt forget about my blog.

just. too busy! pos is over, my days in hsbc is over!

starting a new chapter. one where i plan to take up swimming, korean, dance.. and NUS FASS!

maybe going phuket with ex classmates. faculty camp.

looks like life is not going to calm down after all.

im just excited... because above all of this, i cant wait to hear the voice of God in this new direction.

its big. i dont know how.. dont know what yet. but i know He has great plans.

my last day at work was lovely. who am i to deserve wonderful superiors, my team colleagues that take care of me, surrounding colleagues who help me out all the time, and fellow temp staff which became my awesome friends that are beyond lunchtimes.

all i can say is.. God took care of me. i feel so amazingly blessed, to the point of crying.
happy, grateful tears.

hi world.

2007-05-18T11:19:00.000-07:00

bloooooooogger spoiled for awhile. after that the urge to blog just got buried at the back of my head underneath the humongous pile of work that individually screams "me first!" "urgent!" "better do it now or die!". simultaneously. soo........ you get the idea.

im suddenly gripped by the paranoia to join some nus camps. haha. would i lose out if i dont?!? (inner kiasu alert.....)

pos is in. exactly. 12 days. AHHH.

like i said. i have fried brain cells. forgive my random train of thought.

the only thing coherent was the amazing cg i had just now. jimmy is sooooooo funny! the best part was, presence of God was so strong. really felt that the fierce battle i was fighting up to now is slowly cracking. my hard work is paying off. my breakthrough is coming! :D

sigh. happy.

let Your kingdom come
let Your will be done

nus

2007-05-04T09:52:00.000-07:00

btw. I AM SO HAPPY. finally got my nus acceptance letter. fass, here i come! (:

kbox

2007-05-04T09:36:00.000-07:00

had a amazing time at kbox today! really starting to love that place. thanks ber, vonn, tong, liting, vanessa! :D

just recieved an email. the title itself was calling out to me. (felt like running away, but i knew nothing can hide from God)

'The desire of the lazy man kills him, for his hands refuse to labour. - Prov 21:25

The heart of the lazy will be ruled by frustration and anger unless effort matches desire.

The thrill of the hunt and the kill is all the lazy person wants.

To gut the fish, skin the bear or butcher the beast is too much like hard work.

The lazy man lives in an unfinished world - Nothing is completed.

The excitement of starting a thing soon fades to hard work that the lazy person does not want to do.

-Phil Pringle.

ever had the feeling a word speaks right into your heart?

to change the world, we must all start somewhere.

(:

mother's day present

2007-05-01T09:05:00.000-07:00

my mum came, for the 1st time, to church today! it wasnt for service. but still. im just so happy (:

btw, in case anyone is wondering (or not) i just want to hereby inform you that little white inconspicuous diamond-like things on your left are actually navigation links. (:

im really wrecking my brains for a nice mother's day gift.

Personalized Mug With Hershey's. Free Shipping. $11.99

Teddy Bear + Wine Bouquet. $59.90

Teddy Bear + Chocs Bouquet. $69.90

Carnations Bouquet + Earrings $79.90

Oyster (Pearl) In a Can. Necklace for Containing Pearl included. $15.90 (+$1 postage) off Ebay.

my favourite is really the earrings one but oh so expensiveeeee. the pearl in a can thing is quite special. and cheap. heh. unfortunately, it also looks cheap. sigh.

*tears hair*

anyhow. had a great family day. i love sun! (:

remember

2007-04-30T10:59:00.000-07:00

since fang jing just emailed me these photos.. i'd thought i would just upload it. (: 1st time i had so much fun kboxing. thanks for coming into my life! you guys brought so much joy and laughter! from lunchtime.. to winnie-the-pooh tumblers day.. to suffocating in the compactor's.. to hanging out at the fax machine.. to all the snacking in the office.. to sinba, strepsils, honky, cardigan, lor mee, white specs, brown/blue/green shirt, the godfather, the uncles, batman's best friend, cow, hua hua.. to everything. i will never forget every single one of you!

thank you God.. for letting us meet.

love

2007-04-28T11:55:00.000-07:00

you know.. sometimes we would ask ourselves.

even as church-goers, bible-believers, christians.

what if God isnt real?
whats the point of going to church?
why do i even need God, even if He is real?
i mean.. i lived the majority of my life up to this point fine what.
i didnt die, didnt kill anyone, i have a life, friends, family.
im fine.. i can manage to live life even without God.

but today.. as i stepped into church for the dont-know-how-many-th time, as the familiar routine of praise and worship began, God began to show me why all over again.

the presence of God.

i cant explain why.. but even if im down, upset, happy, frustrated, anxious, excited, whatever i was feeling: the presence of God in worship just fulfills me. i cant see it, it doesnt talk audibly or do magic tricks. but somehow.. i just feel satisfied. i feel loved. i feel Him.

so i know why i go to church.. because His presence is there. right in the house of God. something which i bring away with me.. like the smell of the church aircon on my clothes. i bring it home, i bring it everywhere i go for the rest of the week til i am recharged again.

amazing right.

to touch the living God.

(:

visitation

2007-04-26T09:49:00.000-07:00

i slept at 4am last night.

miraculously i woke up for work and was more or less like energetic the whole day. i actually lasted til abt 5plus before i started to feel like a zombie. after that i did some chionging frm dhoby mrt to toa payoh stadium and finally bishan where i watched a lovely korean drama after a fantastic dinner at heng tong yan's house! followed by the most gorgeous and 'disturbingly delicious' dessert!! my goodness. its so yummy. and so SMALL. tiny things! 6 in a box for like $12.60 - what i would really call daylight robbery. and then tong got her gramps to send me and kim all the way home. thanks so much tong! and tong's gramps (he's so cute may i kidnap him tong? :D)

havent enjoyed myself like that in such a long time. haha. sound quite deprived right. haha but i guess i just havent been couch-potato-ing! oh, the days of non-stop korean dramas in bed. wake at 1pm, cook some instant noodles and have it in front the tv, watch til mum reaches home at abt 7ish, have dinner, and then use the computer/watch other tv with my family members. haha. insane right. i actually lost weight that way. completely bizarre. spent so much time stuck in front of that tv that i barely snacked or ate much. cos my room is like 3rd floor and kitchen 1st. hah. i can chiong like one korean drama (abt 16 episodes) in 2 days. or less. muahaha. i became one with the bed. almost. (:

tmr is jesse's last day at work. sigh. gonna miss her. everyone's quitting. oh well. on the day when everyone quits, we are going to go out like nobody's business okay! swimming sentosa kboxing shopping eating clubbing movieing everything!

the orginal hsbc xiao meis gang (:

we keep adding and subtracting, but everyone of you is special to me. you made everyday at work something to look forward to. thanks guys!

sick

2007-04-22T06:51:00.000-07:00

im sick. please pray for me! *coughs*

meant to live

2007-04-20T10:13:00.000-07:00

the figure in the distance walking like the weight of the world was on his shoulders. eyes on the ground, feet dragging along the pavement. every step mirroring the heavy heart on the inside.

it reminded me of myself just a few days ago.

today as i eventually overtook this guy, i thought hey! im not like that today. i've already found the strength. to overcome that emo-ness, that depression.

my walk didn't become easier or shorter. its still that same 15 minutes with more uphills than downhills, leaving me tired and sweating. but now i walk with joy in every step.

with purpose. because i know. my God is there for me. He will guide me in the darkness. because He called me.. He will not abandon me.

so i can hope.

i can look forward to tomorrow.

and have faith that i can achieve the impossible (:

i love You!

multi-tasking

2007-04-19T09:06:00.000-07:00

i love my life!

legacy in the making.

every minute counts.

time spent with everyone, time building relationships, time building pple, time building God's kingdom.

to focus.

to be a master at what i do, whenever i do it.

to give it my all and best when i have allocated time for it.

to complete it and excel in it.

this is the way i should move now on..

not to be a jack of all trades and master of none.

i will trust You for the grace and strength. just like that day in my darkest moment.. in the dark and lonely road.. You were there. i just felt Your strength took over my exhausted heart. thank You.

i know i can do this. because i am called!

this is why i love my life.. it counts. (:

sigh

2007-04-08T06:34:00.000-07:00

if you loved me...

i know you did.

if you still love me...

i know you still do.

so why?

its so hard. sometimes.

im struggling to stay on the right path.

to just not throw in the towel and give up.

“O My Father, if this cup cannot pass away from Me unless I drink it, Your will be done.” Matthew 26:42

love gave us dreams

2007-04-05T06:34:00.000-07:00

love gave us dreams

above title translated from a cai ming you lyric. HE IS SO CUTE. (i will kill all who disagree)

and i love his songs. he composed them himself. not the lyrics part, but the music is just amazing.

brenda claims she saw him at heeren. like AHHH. if its really him. i will faint! but i wasnt there! so AHHHHHHHH. sighhh.

19 years old.

my age!

i love music. and i love God for creating music! haha i cant imagine life without it.

especially acoustic sounds. mmmmm.

i love writing as well. gosh im arts through and through.

oh well. we're all aesthetic beings! some more than others. (:

drank too much coffee today. im really going to miss crystal when she leaves. sigh. im going to miss talking to her while i make coffee at the pantry. ):

i hope i dont fall sick. its such an awful waste of my time.

24 hours never seems enough.

haha. the grass is always greener on the other side.

Lord, give me wisdom.

fly away.

2007-04-04T08:50:00.000-07:00

i love balloons. they look gorgeous when they fly away into the clouds and the blue, blue sky.

haha.

im really such a hopeless romantic.

but i love the beauty of God's creation.

the trees, the grass, the wind, the flowers.. they amaze me.

comtemplative style?

a little bit.

nature brings peace.

to just close your eyes and soak in the beauty.

thats what i love to do in the presence of God.

had pos prac today! really hope more pple will join us. and experience the joy! unforgettable experience every year. hope the music will be done. the dance and the cheer and the stunts! haha am thinking of being a base. sigh. from flyer to base! i really ought to watch my weight. must jiayou!

ok. need sleep.

'When you're doing what you're not supposed to be doing its distracted futility.' Phil Pringle.

the power of focus!

grace

2007-04-03T06:43:00.000-07:00

nothing can save me now.

im so thankful for grace.

im trying. help me to give my best.

(:

IM HOME EARLY TODAY.

yes. i must rest early!

haha.

ok. after i make good use of this time by investing in my haizimen.

ahh so exciting!! easter is here :D

cant wait for service.

and sunday!! to go crazy KBOXING with my hsbc xiao mei gang. woohoo!

oh i bought lotsa new clothes, necklace, new earphones and a new phone over the weekend. thanks mummy! so blessed (:

'For I, the Lord Your God, will hold your right hand, saying to you, 'Fear not, I will help you.' Isiah 41:13

consume

2007-04-01T10:02:00.000-07:00

I HAVE NO TIME TO BLOG.

ok.

this is really expected.

haha.

blogs are high maintenance.

not that pple read, but i think its good to keep writing.

expressing, organising, visualising.

'Discipline and concentration are a matter of being interested.' Tom Kite

really like this quote!

my destiny lies in my decisions.

hwaiting! :D

stretched

2007-03-25T09:26:00.000-07:00

how am i supposed to do all these things ive said yes to?!?

i should learn to say no sometimes.

went to tong's bday bbq.

everyone was fighting to play pool. hah.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL! (:

ok. back to all that work screaming for my attention.

when i commit, i gotta deliver.

help me. You're the only one who can now.

faith

2007-03-24T08:33:00.000-07:00

One day, a particular king was looking for samurais to be his personal bodyguard. Three samurais auditioned for the job: a young samurai, an old samurai and a Jewish samurai.

The first samurai, the young one, was called before the king. He took out a small box, opened it, and a small fly flew out. With a 'Yee-hah!', he sliced the fly into 2 pieces. The king was impressed and said "Very good!".

The next samurai, the old one, took out a small box, opened it, and similarly it contained a small fly. With a 'Yee-hah!', he sliced the fly into 4 pieces. The king was even more impressed and said "Excellent!".

The last samurai, the Jewish one, did the exact same thing with a small box, a small fly and a 'Yee-hah!'. However, the fly was still flying about. So the king said: "Why should I use you? You couldn't even kill the fly.'

The Jewish samurai replied: "Circumcision was never meant to kill."

hehehe. this one is SO ROYSTON.

i like pst casey treat! his hairstyle never changes. haha. but he's funny.

and i like his faith msg. very timely. *hollers* take that, moutains in my life! im bigger than you! :D

actually. going to church is like going clubbing. i think pple like clubbing cos its simply such an EXPERIENCE. like all your senses are invigorated (or really raped) by all that happens in one night. you are so saturated with what you see, hear, touch, smell, taste. i think everyone is looking for something that completely consumes them and let them escape from reality once in a while. or everyday, for some pple.

i figure many pple cant get that out of church. obviously and expectedly i will pick church but its because i can get that same kind of experience when i actually meet God, have an encounter, a revelation, a touch from heaven. and i always walk away feeling like 'wow what was that.' i love the presence of God. i tingle from head to toe whenever i feel Him in the room.

i like clubbing but i guess i wont do it too often. bad for health, lah. dont want to die early of lung cancer. passive smoking is far more damaging than 1st hand smoke. so annoying.

so if i had to get my kick, id rather get it at expo hall 8! heh.

a full person wont hunger for bad food. (:

girls night out!

2007-03-23T10:41:00.000-07:00

ok virgin clubbing experience!

i like it. (:

minus the danger of going deaf, dehydrated throat, collapsing lungs from 2nd hand smoke, dying feet from killer heels and smelly hair (and clothes, bag, everything).

oh. and crazy fat girls, drunk/pseudo drunk psychos, desperate boys. not forgetting the twins who almost succeeded in pretending to be friends with one of us and dear Spasm-Stripey (he wore a striped shirt and danced in spasms) who tried to treat us to an entire jug of dubious liquid.

loved the company. michu dezzo sou char andrew (or andrea) and joe!

um chi um chi um chi. (mimes dancing by bouncing up and down on the spot. )

hehehe.

im just trying to make a living.

2007-03-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

you think with a name like blogskin, it should carry blogger-friendly products. but nooooooooooooooooooooooooo. you get templates that isnt 'parsed correctly!'

well hello world!

2007-03-19T06:21:00.000-07:00

thus end my hiatus against public blogs (:

ah well, anything for my haizimen! ie.paul.

(: