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Friday, November 23, 2007
i just read a blog of a friend's. mmm. nice. has been long since i met someone who writes this well. (:
im just being random.
today cg was early.
i got a great job offer! $12 an hour at kovan. convenient, work little hours and earn alot of money. hoho. thanks so much, God!!
planning to watch
Enchanted with the mummy on sunday.
i have an econs exam tmr. AHHHH.
*takes a deep breath*
gotta jiayou man, jing.
i can do this.
i live to shine for You. (:
♥
Saturday, November 10, 2007
there were about 3 moments when i felt like doing something today.
1. when i was watching the arise & build video, and i saw the orphanages in sri lanka and the schools in china. really very touched by their gratitude and how blessed they are.. at the same time touched by the sacrifice to make it possible.
2. when i saw an old friend coming back to God again. i had so much to say.. but i just dont know what to say. i wanted to say it was amazing just to stand together in the same space, in this expo hall 8 again. i missed you so much. fellowshipping together, eating together. about 4 years? almost 5 years now. oh, and i dreamt of you twice.. and it came to pass. i knew you would.. welcome home, my dear brother.
3. when i saw the bitterness and hatred of someone i love very much. sigh.
how, God. how?
'I wait for the Lord, my soul waits
And in His Word I do hope. '
Psalms130:5
because of you, God.. i have hope. i can hope. things will get better. they always do.. like what You did for me a million times. i love You, always. (:
♥
Monday, November 5, 2007
'And I said, "Oh, that I had wings
like a dove!
For then I would fly away and be at
rest'
Psalms 55:6
i named this blog fly away because many times, thats what i really want to do. of course.. what with the hopeless romantic me with my pre-concieved notions, it seems like a beautiful thing to do. to fly away into the open sky. without the heavy burdens that weigh me down so sometimes. maybe blogging allows me to write down and in a way, deposit these heavy burdens. or perhaps i just need a way to "see" my thoughts. im a visual person, i think.
anyway, im sad today. :(
just had the most saddening conversation with a.. ex-friend of mine, i guess i have to call her that now. im now the "hypocrite" that "makes [her] puke]. sigh. what happened to the days of going home together, shopping together, taking pictures on our phones together and setting them as both our wallpapers, praying together, having bible study, even just enjoying each other's company. does that all mean nothing? have my care for you been erased by a simple misunderstanding? if only you would listen to my explanation.. if only you would forgive me.. if only you would let me make it up to you. i am so sorry i let you down, so sorry i let everything perpetuate.
i guess this will only be the first.. and definitely not the last. it is possible to love a person with all your heart, to sow into a person's life, to give so much yet... not have reciprocation. its maddeningly unbelievable but true. what can i do? i still ask myself what can i do for her? everything i do or say is rejected. im so worried for her but there's nothing i can do but pray... God, will she hear me one day? God, keep her safe.. let her be happy. heal her hurts, and help her move on. Lord, let her not leave church, but find comfort in Your presence. let your love keep her and protect her. always. in Jesus' name, amen.
haha. im so whiny. but its okay right, God? (:
♥
Friday, November 23, 2007
i just read a blog of a friend's. mmm. nice. has been long since i met someone who writes this well. (:
im just being random.
today cg was early.
i got a great job offer! $12 an hour at kovan. convenient, work little hours and earn alot of money. hoho. thanks so much, God!!
planning to watch
Enchanted with the mummy on sunday.
i have an econs exam tmr. AHHHH.
*takes a deep breath*
gotta jiayou man, jing.
i can do this.
i live to shine for You. (:
♥
Saturday, November 10, 2007
there were about 3 moments when i felt like doing something today.
1. when i was watching the arise & build video, and i saw the orphanages in sri lanka and the schools in china. really very touched by their gratitude and how blessed they are.. at the same time touched by the sacrifice to make it possible.
2. when i saw an old friend coming back to God again. i had so much to say.. but i just dont know what to say. i wanted to say it was amazing just to stand together in the same space, in this expo hall 8 again. i missed you so much. fellowshipping together, eating together. about 4 years? almost 5 years now. oh, and i dreamt of you twice.. and it came to pass. i knew you would.. welcome home, my dear brother.
3. when i saw the bitterness and hatred of someone i love very much. sigh.
how, God. how?
'I wait for the Lord, my soul waits
And in His Word I do hope. '
Psalms130:5
because of you, God.. i have hope. i can hope. things will get better. they always do.. like what You did for me a million times. i love You, always. (:
♥
Monday, November 5, 2007
'And I said, "Oh, that I had wings
like a dove!
For then I would fly away and be at
rest'
Psalms 55:6
i named this blog fly away because many times, thats what i really want to do. of course.. what with the hopeless romantic me with my pre-concieved notions, it seems like a beautiful thing to do. to fly away into the open sky. without the heavy burdens that weigh me down so sometimes. maybe blogging allows me to write down and in a way, deposit these heavy burdens. or perhaps i just need a way to "see" my thoughts. im a visual person, i think.
anyway, im sad today. :(
just had the most saddening conversation with a.. ex-friend of mine, i guess i have to call her that now. im now the "hypocrite" that "makes [her] puke]. sigh. what happened to the days of going home together, shopping together, taking pictures on our phones together and setting them as both our wallpapers, praying together, having bible study, even just enjoying each other's company. does that all mean nothing? have my care for you been erased by a simple misunderstanding? if only you would listen to my explanation.. if only you would forgive me.. if only you would let me make it up to you. i am so sorry i let you down, so sorry i let everything perpetuate.
i guess this will only be the first.. and definitely not the last. it is possible to love a person with all your heart, to sow into a person's life, to give so much yet... not have reciprocation. its maddeningly unbelievable but true. what can i do? i still ask myself what can i do for her? everything i do or say is rejected. im so worried for her but there's nothing i can do but pray... God, will she hear me one day? God, keep her safe.. let her be happy. heal her hurts, and help her move on. Lord, let her not leave church, but find comfort in Your presence. let your love keep her and protect her. always. in Jesus' name, amen.
haha. im so whiny. but its okay right, God? (:
