'And I said, "Oh, that I had wings
like a dove!
For then I would fly away and be at
rest'

Psalms 55:6

i named this blog fly away because many times, thats what i really want to do. of course.. what with the hopeless romantic me with my pre-concieved notions, it seems like a beautiful thing to do. to fly away into the open sky. without the heavy burdens that weigh me down so sometimes. maybe blogging allows me to write down and in a way, deposit these heavy burdens. or perhaps i just need a way to "see" my thoughts. im a visual person, i think.

anyway, im sad today. :(

just had the most saddening conversation with a.. ex-friend of mine, i guess i have to call her that now. im now the "hypocrite" that "makes [her] puke]. sigh. what happened to the days of going home together, shopping together, taking pictures on our phones together and setting them as both our wallpapers, praying together, having bible study, even just enjoying each other's company. does that all mean nothing? have my care for you been erased by a simple misunderstanding? if only you would listen to my explanation.. if only you would forgive me.. if only you would let me make it up to you. i am so sorry i let you down, so sorry i let everything perpetuate.

i guess this will only be the first.. and definitely not the last. it is possible to love a person with all your heart, to sow into a person's life, to give so much yet... not have reciprocation. its maddeningly unbelievable but true. what can i do? i still ask myself what can i do for her? everything i do or say is rejected. im so worried for her but there's nothing i can do but pray... God, will she hear me one day? God, keep her safe.. let her be happy. heal her hurts, and help her move on. Lord, let her not leave church, but find comfort in Your presence. let your love keep her and protect her. always. in Jesus' name, amen.

haha. im so whiny. but its okay right, God? (:

'And I said, "Oh, that I had wings
like a dove!
For then I would fly away and be at
rest'

Psalms 55:6

i named this blog fly away because many times, thats what i really want to do. of course.. what with the hopeless romantic me with my pre-concieved notions, it seems like a beautiful thing to do. to fly away into the open sky. without the heavy burdens that weigh me down so sometimes. maybe blogging allows me to write down and in a way, deposit these heavy burdens. or perhaps i just need a way to "see" my thoughts. im a visual person, i think.

anyway, im sad today. :(

just had the most saddening conversation with a.. ex-friend of mine, i guess i have to call her that now. im now the "hypocrite" that "makes [her] puke]. sigh. what happened to the days of going home together, shopping together, taking pictures on our phones together and setting them as both our wallpapers, praying together, having bible study, even just enjoying each other's company. does that all mean nothing? have my care for you been erased by a simple misunderstanding? if only you would listen to my explanation.. if only you would forgive me.. if only you would let me make it up to you. i am so sorry i let you down, so sorry i let everything perpetuate.

i guess this will only be the first.. and definitely not the last. it is possible to love a person with all your heart, to sow into a person's life, to give so much yet... not have reciprocation. its maddeningly unbelievable but true. what can i do? i still ask myself what can i do for her? everything i do or say is rejected. im so worried for her but there's nothing i can do but pray... God, will she hear me one day? God, keep her safe.. let her be happy. heal her hurts, and help her move on. Lord, let her not leave church, but find comfort in Your presence. let your love keep her and protect her. always. in Jesus' name, amen.

haha. im so whiny. but its okay right, God? (: